My Goal

I was sitting back this morning, pondering exactly what it is that I would like to see happen with all of this. Sure, the most obvious choice is an overall improved quality of life. There's quite a bit right now that just "bothers me" about being the size and weight that I currently am. When I go to a restaurant, will I comfortably be able to fit into one of their booths. Also, when I've got my belly jutting out that far in front of me, it usually turns into a catch all for falling food particles.

When I'm behind the wheel of my car, I feel unstoppable. I feel free, as if I can glide along with the wind, and just get carried to my destination. I want to feel that way with my body as well. I want to feel that there's nothing out there to stop me from doing something that I want. I want to ride roller coasters, sit comfortably in a movie theater, just feel like I fit wherever I'm supposed to.

I've never been self-conscious about my looks or my size, so this isn't really a vanity issue. I've always been one to feel that if you don't like me for what I am, then you just don't know what you are missing. But by that same token, it would be nice for people to finally see me for who I am, rather than the outside impression of "Oh, here comes the fat guy, please don't let him sit next to me" that I ususally get.

Right now, I'm not looking to get "skinny". I don't want to be waifish or near anorexic. I'd like to be right near the top of my "healthy" weight levels, so I should have some mass to me. I just want to get to the point where I feel more accepted in the world, and also have a greater chance to lead a much longer life.